Why are people so afraid of self-reflection? Are they afraid of what they will see? Are they afraid of seeing something they don't like, or even worse, something that they're proud of? Or something they love? In our society where outward appearances seem prized above all else, does this mean we have distorted what a ...True person is? (Sometimes I think so. Sometimes I think our society and therefore we as a whole do not place enough emphasis on being people of substance.)
The written word is powerful. I feel empowered when I write. But, through my writing and self-reflection, I am also even more painfully aware of those things about myself that I want to change. The insecurities, silly pride, or sometimes just plain ignorance. There is so much I want to learn about and so much I want to study, and, consequently, so much I want to eventually share with the world...if I reach a point where I am able to share those things.
I want to make a meaningful difference. I don't want to just be "that pianist" who is good to work with or who does good work. I truly want to make a difference in people's lives. I know that may sound silly, since I am by trade a classical pianist -- and who could make a difference doing THAT, anyway?? -- but I truly believe that there is a way. I will find a way to make a difference. If I can succeed in doing that, then I will consider my life a success. Don't get me wrong; there are PLENTY of things I want to do -- the specific list is pretty long -- but making a difference in people's lives is, I suppose, my goal behind it all. I truly believe that my musical voice is at least a little bit unique -- so if there is a way to make a difference, I won't stop searching until I find it.
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